still can’t really process this whole thing

After yesterday’s gloriously disasterous fight with J, I still have nothing to post about. It’s pretty much all I thought about today, and after going over the whole thing twice — once with KG and once with my mom — I’m simply left with a headache and a twice-broken heart.

My best friend has told me that we basically can’t be friends anymore.

I think what hurts the most is that he has been lying to me about the state of our friendship for months. I thought we were doing so well. I thought we were both completely past it and over it, and really, truly friends again.

And what is even worse… deep down I expected him to call today and apologize. And he didn’t.

Apparently, our friendship is over… and he doesn’t think it’s worth saving.